无聊的发烧

这几天一直发无聊的烧。

拜五就开始发一个莫名的小烧。到了拜六我开始担心还能不能去演唱会 。一月就买了票，等了七个月的唉！ 硬着头皮到了室内体育场， 烧开始不知不觉地退了。演唱会站了全场，喊破了喉咙，挥手臂到不行， 回到家呼呼的倒在床上。隔天演唱会的后遗症，要去实习却睡过头，不像平常早上包青天脸，心情还特别好，五月天的歌一直在Ipod 没停过， 就算实习时淋了一整天的雨，在池里冻得半死， 也觉得ok 。

哪知道，星期一， 这莫名的小烧又回来了。 折腾了我一整天， 魂不守舍，没精打采。

看来，我是对工作敏感，而五月天的歌是解药。 为了治好我的敏感症，我要罢工， 整天躺在床上听五月天的歌！

(其实“发烧”是个动词，还是一个名词？我在“发烧” / 我在发一个“烧”？？呸。不管了.....）

五月天 DNA 创造 演唱会

hmm..how should I say..

I stood for 3hrs 45 mins through the concert (effectively rendering the money for the seat to basically paying for that spot to stand), sang along with the mass of people in the Indoor Stadium, and waved my light stick till both my arms ache (of course, if one arm is tired you wave with the other arm mah..)
(all that would explain my poor timing for my last stamina test at the pool today =.=").

But then I felt a bit letdown by the end of the concert..

Anyway it was worthed it cos the concert was good!:-
- it was a full solid 3hr and 45mins of Mayday songs, with a lot of good songs from their older albums, and a good mix with their latest.
- as usual, they had brought the concert to a high towards the end
- they sang 出头天!
- they sang 如烟！
- they sang 雌雄同体！and 一颗苹果！ and 人生海海！and 温柔！ :D

But then I was disappointed cos:-
- the second day concert just isnt the same as if it had been the first or only day concert. The band members seemed to be going through the motion....sigh..feels conned for buying the pre-sale voucher.
- there were too much stage effects - pyro, confetti, streamers, pyro, confetti.. like huh?Erm..I'm here to watch the band sing, not see some D&D show.
- the story-video is so gimmicky..I mean..OMG..I'm sure that the band doesn't have to resort to that? Ok, maybe even if the production company wants to make the concert a bit more interesting, maybe only the opening video is enough, or a short video interlude.
- Erm..the LOVE game was used last year, as well as the 新歌飚唱会this year liao...I love you all but you all have to try something next time...

But the main thing is..........................为什么我没拿到那张信封去后台和五月天拍照???!!!

可是我还是爱你们的啦！ :D

(no..no photos cos I thought my cam batt has enough battery when I checked in the afternoon - 2 bars. But then the 2 bar died on me before the concert starts. argh...)

My next tattoo..

may just be this.

Hope / Faith Ambigram Tattoo Design at WowTattoos.com

生命有一种绝对

如果我不曾走过这一遍
生命中还有多少苦和甜美
那风中的歌声孤单哽咽的声音是谁
回忆中那个少年为何依然不停的追

想要征服的世界始终都没有改变
那地上无声蒸发我的泪
黑暗中期待光线生命有一种绝对
等待我请等待我
直到约定融化成笑颜*

那生命灿烂烟火般上演
你和我最后都要回归地平线
那留下的足迹浪花冲走回忆海岸线
靠近我再拥抱我
请不要让我的心冷却

想要征服的世界始终都没有改变
那地上无声蒸发我的泪
黑暗中期待光线生命有一种绝对
等待我请等待我
靠近我再拥抱我
不要走请不要走
直到约定融化成笑颜

直到我看见生命的绝对

Disquiet

There is this sense of disquiet today..I have been playing the Lisa Ekdhal CD that I finally hunted down, over and over again. Even though I am tired physically..I can feel the restlessness and agitation coursing through me, like atoms colliding against one another.

Was what happened a sign? To tell me that its about time to change how I view my life, what I should do moving on?

I know it probably should, but somehow I still get can't my mind around to it. It's funny how the mind works - sometimes the rational and emotional part just cannot come to the same meeting point.

Probably this sense of disquiet comes from the din of this internal battle.

Life in Mono

They both looked stonily straight ahead from their car seats. The morning traffic caterpillared forward, everybody trying to gain that extra distance to get to their destination, to fulfill their livelihood obligation for the day, and they were waiting for their turn to move ahead.

She took in air, before breathing out again silently. Their lives had been like this for the past few years. He would drop her at work, before he headed to his office. Both of them would go through the rigours of office politics and other corporate what-nots, and he would pick her up after work; they then head to either in-laws place for dinner. Their topics of conversation has never strayed far from their schedules, their obligations to their own parents, the daily mundane things of life. So routine that she felt the crushing weight of the unspoken desires, dreams and thoughts.

She could feel that his mind was faraway. Somewhere where she couldn't reach out to, or understand. It had been a while..that they talked about what they wanted to do, their aspiration, and their plans for the future. Had reality finally set in? They were now more concerned talking about their bonuses, and the tax reliefs which they could claim come every April. There were still a few romantic moments now and then, which had often happened enough to keep their sex life reasonably satisfied, but she missed the kind of connection..when they just talked. About anything.

She took in another breathe, about to blurt out something that would break the silent monotony of this routine morning drive. But just as the words were on the tip of her tongue, she caught herself. It seemed pointless - things were ok now, why rock the boat and create unnecessary trouble. So the words wisped into thin air, and blown away with her exhaled breath.

She continued staring at the traffic ahead, waiting for the traffic light to change its the colour, and blend into the anonymous mass of morning traffic.


(Inspired by this couple I saw from the rear view mirror during my drive to work this morning. What was that phrase about the characters being fictional, and any coincidence to any real persons are..concidence? Oh well..you know that)

(Anyway I still cant get the mental image out of my mind, seemed like there was still a little something..so here's my final take)

He stared stonily ahead...he had to reach her office soon, if not he would be late for the 9am meeting. And only one thing ran through his mind relentlessly..


Why didn't his EPL team score that goal last night??

(Mars vs Venus..the world will never be equal)

两个星期！

真不敢相信。我在看MV的时候， 933 尽然一起播出这首歌。



倒数两个星期！woohoo~!

Burnt!

My face never felt so burnt before. Usually I would definitely have a cap on if I need to be under the sun, a habit from undergoing morning trainings since the days of centralised training camps prior to tournaments. I hated it when the sun was in the eye, adding to the headache from the glare off the pitch and the heat overhead. The habit carried on - I never was without a cap at the beach, any outdoor games that i need to be under the sun for any extended period of time. So any major peeling would be any other parts of the body like the shoulder or back, rather than the face. Of course, I learnt later that direct sunlight is always the predecessor for early onset of wrinkles, so thank god for the early initiative arising from necessity.

But I forgot that 7 hours of the sun in the pool, though mostly overcast and not that sunny, can cause the sun-burn!

I think my face hasn't gone through such an ordeal since I was maybe in....JC? Uni?? Even when we were playing Wooden Shoe or the National sixes in the open fields, the team would also try to find shade whenever we could in between the games. So I really couldn't think of another time when I was so burnt.

Sometimes I wonder why so many people like to sun tan under direct sun exposure. Especially the ang mohs who seriously looked 100% COOKED and yet they looked super happy having just grilled (and destroyed) their epidermis. It's so bad for the skin! Just enjoy the sea breeze and the warmth of the sun under the nice coconut tree shade. It's definitely more skin friendly! And sun block! SPF 50 and above! (Sheesh..I sound so auntie...)

Now my nose bridge is seriously painful to touch. I just hope that it doesn't develop to fever..

Saturday Brunch

F is back in Sg. What was supposed to be a short stop over for her before returning to London became a one week ordeal of getting documentations done when her serviced apartment in Jkt (Marriot) was burglared in the most absurb manner that I wouldn't have thought would happen in such a reputable hotel.


Anyway we decided to grab brunch yesterday (though I was most reluctant to get up early..yeah! i know i know..bad friend! boo!) since most of last week was quite tied up for me; so I called along C and we decided to hit PS cafe at Palais Renaissance since it was the most convenient for both of them.

But in the end, I was the one who was early :/

It being quite overcast instead of being too sunny, I decided to sit in the open area, overlooking the Thai Embassy. Being early is good as well, since there weren't much people around and it felt really serene and laid back. Brunch is supposed to feel this way :)





I would like to come here one day with a book..





































While waiting for the rest to come.

































I lurve places with high ceilings. It just give that sense of airyness.


































I wouldn't say that the service was good.. In fact, I was quite put off by the fact that the server forgot our water, menu, and my hand was in the air like for a full minute before someone saw us. Yes, the place was busy but busy shou;dn't be an excuse for bad service.

Anyway the place aside, we sat and talked for 3 hours..F is seeing someone now and I'm actually quite glad for her. Hope that things will work out fine this time round, despite the age difference, its not easy to stay alone so far away.

Sometimes fate works in mysterious ways..like how we three were the most unlikely friends, sometimes I wonder what had kept us together after all these years - C being the chi chi branded stuff lover, F the totally girl-iness personified, me being always the athletic one.

Oh well, hope F's plan to be married by 2012 comes true :))

Love of Siam

I blogged about the song almost 2 years ago, and its still one of the songs that frequently get played on my Ipod. And on Wednesday I finally caught the show!! :D

I was surfing the GV website looking at something else, when I suddenly saw something familiar somewhere at the bottom of the listing....what?! Since when has the show been showing in the theatre? (like since 16 Jul..already 3 weeks!) And then it was a flurry of smses to Jun zi who was the one who gave me the MP3 (but she had to cover a soccer match..) and then to a few colleagues who might have been interested. My email to them went something like - It was a hit in Bkk in 2007. It is a show about 2 gay boys. The song is very nice!

And in the end 3 dear colleagues decided to join me for the 3 hour show starting from 9.15pm, without even knowing what the movie title was, cos I forgot to give that info in the hurry that I was sending out the email. Haha!

There are some universal themes, and love will always be one that revolves around anybody's life. The story centers around the 2 boys, Tong and Mew, but the theme manifest itself throughout the film. Love for someone - your family, your loved ones, your friends, and the other emotions that run with it - hope when you just secretly watches someone, pain when you know that the loved one will never return, guilt when you wish you can turn back time and undo the wrongs, sadness when unrequited.

It's painful to watch the ending, when both apparently love each other , for one of them to tell the other, that they can't be together, but that doesn't mean that he doesn't love him. Sigh..

Anyway, the show was beautifully shot. Though the movie was a bit slow, but the plot develop at its own pace for its own reasons and there was never a dull moment or bland screen shot. And with the scores that tug at the heart strings, it's really an enjoyable movie. Of course it helped that the two main characters are cute. ha!~ But my favourite scene is still the one when Mew's grandmother sat with him at the piano, telling him that every song played tells the listerner something. She then played the song that Mew's grandfather used to play to her, and asked Mew to listen for the message in the song. Mew listened, and said quietly, "Grandfather is saying that he misses you".

It's good that we finally caught the show on Wed, cos from then onwards, the show is going to be screened only in the afternoon at about 1pm. Good thing was, the 3 colleauges liked the show, so that kinda relieved my guilt of having to leave the theatre only at 12 midnight. :))

I want the soundtrack!

(The only thing that marred the show was..the people in the theatre grovelling and snickering when the 2 boys kissed during one shot. I mean, come on! You know what the show is about, and with all the ratings and advisories, you would have known what is likely to come up during the movie. If you are not prepared for it, then don't watch! Inconsiderate idiots..)

Super random

I am damn shag now. The only reason why I am blogging is:

- I had a wedding dinner to attend
- I have to check if the loc is going to be affected by the road closure for NDP so I went to onemotoring.com
- then I decided to go put a mask on cos my face is probably damn dry from the pool and the sun - then I check blogger while I am waiting for the mask to dry
- and I just want to bitch about how shag I am.

ok done bitching. Gg to change and hit the road.

yay, this is a boliao entry to prevent me from falling asleep while waiting for the mask to dry. hah~

Out of the blue

Tomorrow being National Day, my FB is flooded by posts by ex-colleagues, depending on their luck, lamenting the lack of or celebrating this long weekend. At one instance, I kinda miss the actions on the ground - the excitement building up to the event, the adrenalin of managing incidents real time, and the comaraderie from your work goup, all fatigue from the hours spent making sure everything turned out well.

All these makes anyone hardy enough to be able to survive most situations I think. That now, I find civilian life a bit lull..Sigh.

Not so "happily-ever-after" afterall

Met a long time friend for dinner tonight. It was one of those cases where we were all caught up with our own lives, and most of the time, even when we meet up, it would be with everybody else. We had not talked like how we did..like never.

For one, I almost wanted to stuff the pork knuckle down my throat for not knowing about the problem she had with her husband for the past year, even if we had met each other for group gatherings and stuff a few times within the same period.

We talked about things that happened in our lives, and the conversation drifted to how couples around her (there weren't a lot of married people around me I realised) were having different kinds of problems. By the end of the conversation, I was kinda relieved that I was single.

I mean, when two persons get together, to me, it seems like it is to be forever. But reality shows that things are not all that rosy for a lot of married people out there. Of course, personally I heard of a case whereby the couple led separately sex lives (yes) and they are putting up the married front just for the kid. But after hearing some of the stories my friend shared and others which I came across, I began to ponder why people get married in the first place. Of course, some weren't that bad - secretly hating the in-laws, another one continued to put up at her mum's place while the husband stays in the HDB flat they bought together, but there were some that really brought the bile up, like how someone's father brought his mistress home.

I wonder if I am too old fashioned, to still believe in the sanctity of marriage when all these things are happening nowadays. Without sounding too mush, that two persons can meet in mind and thoughts before they decide to spend their lives together. So what happens to trust? And the promises, vows made..? Maybe, an ever-after marriage is becoming a rarity rather than the norm.

In my friend's case, it had been just that even though they have the common vision of spending their lives together, their approach and priorities were all different, and that problem had tangled itself up as time went by. Not that they don't love each other - my friend had said that she still see the husband as a life partner, just that they need that extra luck to go around to solve the issues haggling them. Though my first thought was, why hadn't all these issues been thrashed out before they got married, but I understand, two persons can never be the same, and it's only though real communications that problems get solved. Sometimes, real communication hurts, and it's only human nature to try to avoid them.

It's not easy, and I pray that my friend's problem can get some resolution..My tummy is feeling flu-ey..think my body reacting badly to this reality check.

Lisa Ekdhal

Be prepared to get drunk.

When your mood is dark and stormy..

It happens every now and then.

I get a bit overwhelmed with the things happening in life and then suddenly the world is a bleak and miserable place, with crashing waves and I'll feel like I'm struggling to keep afloat, paddling frantically with a misearable piece of buoy, if any.

That's what happened during my weekend. But finally when Mum got home, I got a bit of solace even though my mood was thunderous when I saw her at the airport. Then the mounting waves calmed down a little, but I still felt a bit stormy, when an sms came from an unsuspecting friend to go chill at Wala. I was torn between staying home to rot or go out and face the world. In the end, I believe the sms came for a reason, so I forced myself to get dressed and got out of the house.

Being out was good, cos I was forced not to snivel, and since I had to walk a distance (one can never get a carpark lot at the main HV carpark, unless you wait there for eternity maybe), I couldn't jolly well walk all scourged up, so with my back straightened, I faced the world as I made my way though the revellers before I hit the joint.

The Unxpected was playing, so it was a shoo-ed in for great music and booze. But nothing beats when the song was as dark as the mood I was in.

The Unxpected cover was on Youtube, but you might as well go check out the real thing - it's much better.

Master of puppets - Metallica