张悬 南国来的孩子

夜深人静的时候，慢慢聆听， 特别感动。

Acceptance

When the spent sun throws up its rays on cloud

And goes down burning into the gulf below,

No voice in nature is heard to cry aloud

At what has happened. Birds, at least must know

It is the change to darkness in the sky.

Murmuring something quiet in her breast,

One bird begins to close a faded eye;

Or overtaken too far from his nest,

Hurrying low above the grove, some waif

Swoops just in time to his remembered tree.

At most he thinks or twitters softly, 'Safe!'

Now let the night be dark for all of ,e.

Let the night be too dark for me to see

Into the future. Let what will be, be

-Robert Lee Frost

累了。 认了。可是还要多几轮？

Makes me feel like heading to the beach

Latest CD that I am digging.

Can you still bear to reach out for that bowl of sharkfin soup?

Someone once told me before - "If it's a pity to kill sharks for shark fins, then shouldn't the same apply to chicken or pigs?"

I couldn't think of a good way to rebutt that person (anyway the conversation took place over a wedding dinner, so I don't think my friend would care to have a table engage in any heated argument over one of the many dishes to be served).

Then I can only say, you don't kill a chicken, throw the carcass away and only eat its feet right? (Ok, that sounded like a super lame and weak argument). And a chicken is not endangered in anyway and you definitely can farm them (I don't even convince myself).

To many, once you profess that you don't eat shark fin, they would automatically assume that

(i) you are a diver; and

(ii) you are out of your mind somewhat for refusing to eat the only dish which would have warranted the hundred odd dollars you have given in that red packet.

But I don't know anybody, even non-divers, can bear to eat shark fin again if you watch the end of this clip. And recall the last time you had that bowl of shark fin soup during a wedding dinner (and do you remember when was that?)

人鯊誌 from alexhofford on Vimeo.

(I might just turn vegetarian if I can't twist my mind around the chicken/sharkfin argument??)

Providing Support

I am not sure if I know what to do.

Looking back, I have walked through the lowest point of my live mostly alone. But that's just me, as I prefer to find my own bearings that will bring me back to normalcy. In the meantime, I rather eschew all human companionship until I feel that I am more ready to face the world.

So when I know that things are probably at their worst for a best friend, I am suddenly at a loss what to do. I resolve to be there for her whenever she needs, but I donno whether to offer to spend time with her more but run the risk of being too cloying, or to let her have more time to herself so that she can seek the peace and quiet she need, without but letting her feel that she has to face her troubles alone.

I just pray that I will be able to act in the best way for her whenever she needs.

可恶的星期五

有心机的男人 － 可恶。

有心机的女人 － 可怕。

竟然让我一天之内，两个都撞上。

真是要去庙上一上香，去去邪，顺便可能打打小人， 赶走身边这些妖魔鬼怪。

可，本是无一物，何处惹尘埃。 妖魔大哥鬼怪大嫂们，只要别来惹我，尽管继续你们的招摇撞骗。

阿弥陀佛！善哉善哉！

May happenings

It's been a long while since I last blogged.

And since then, I have had....

- one dive trip hoping to see hammerhead sharks

- and back from the same dive trip not seeing hammer sharks (when almost every other dive groups saw "oh..I saw one." "We saw the silhoutte of three hammers" "There was one whole school of hammer heads!". ^^%$%^&*^$#

- just when I accepted the fact that I will ply the same travel route for work again, I was given the chance to head to USA. But I wonder if I had been out of line of campaigning for it too much.

- And I have another dive outing slotted for Aug. Woot!~

(ok, and I still haven't figure out the best way to upload photos onto blogger.com from iphoto..and its irritating me to no end. I think i need some tutorial on the wonderful-ness of macbook pro and iphone)

Test

I can't get enough of iPhone apps!:p

On this day

I finally gotten round to go do something about my knee. Which isn't really my knee cos 90% of the time, the physio was pressing onto my lower back. And of course, the pain in the knee was gone after that.

"So much junk!"my physio said, when she used her elbow and pressed down into the rock hard part (and me grimacing/tearing) which was supposed to be flesh on a normal human being. She concluded that I had a very unhappy spine. Secretly, I think it's because the dimples where normal people has at the base o their spine were missing in my case (pelvic bone displaced due to muscle tension).

But I think i felt them just now. guess my spine is feeling a lil happier already :)

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I went to get accessories for my iphone. Which essentially means getting it some protective covers before I start manhandling it. And I can only say, this Iphone craze is ripping people off for the kind of money they charge for a normal silicon / plastic cover. And that I should hv heeded my horoscope reading and save the $$, cos I would eventually get a free one as pressie from my sister.

Oh well, I love pressies :)

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I hit a vanity spot today. And I splurged :)

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The family decided to make do with a simple dinner at the nearby eatery, for the late mother's dinner (mum was in Msia) and my birthday. Was extra poignant as was approaching the table, where mum and brother were sitting, waiting for me and sister.

This is the family :)

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And I am regretting that I didn't take another day's leave. :s

Binge Week

With yesterday's dinner, it marked the third day of bingeing.

Tues it was food and wine at Winbos.

Wed it was crepe and wine at Raffles City.

Yesterday, it was good old fashion steamboat at my favourite chicken rice steamboat place (yes, google chicken rice steamboat and it's the first on the list).

Ever feel that you are so full that even after overnight you will belch at the sight of breakfast? I think I have been feeling that everyday since Tuesday :/

So much for trying to get in shape again after all the late nights at work, in time to squeeze into the wetsuit again. My attempt on Thursday morning was somewhat thwarted by the left knee acting up again which left me doing the trippity hop towards the end of the run so that that knee didn't have to bear weight.

I have got only 5 days to lose those ugly flabs! Argh!

Letting go

Sometimes, when you ask a question, the answer comes in a roundabout way that you would have missed it if you even blink.

To C,

Thanks for showing me how one can choose how she want to feel and think, instead of letting emotion rule, and rear its ugly head. By focusing on the concrete things in life, recognising the absolute and resolving to make things work out, rather than fretting on the unknown. And most of all, knowing that letting go of the episode, cos all other things wont work unless that is so.

And of course, for the yummy crepe and indulgence on my pinot noir :) We go for all day brekkie soon..