残暴

星光灿烂，
现在只成
回忆

乌云
刮风
狂雨

它不惜摧残，
无情,自私
狂妄,自大

我为何还稀罕

在避风港
慢慢挨过这场
无聊的暴风雨

雨过天晴后
再导航

Black Saturday

It's sad that it has to happen again.

The Black Saturday has led to many dead and injured. According to the reports, the attack was timed so that it was the most deadly, when most were breaking fast. If the attack was idealogy led, the idealogy based on a religion when this was the month to practise forebrearance, peace and empathies, I dont see how both can be linked or based on the same theology.

Just like the American financial market crunch..Singaporeans were generally nonchalant, until the truth hit home when AIG was affected. It became a real issue istead of some problems to be dealt by chaps halfway around the globe. Do we need something to happen at our doorstep before we start to sit up, and perhaps realise how vulnerable we are?

I am so darn weak...

...over only 2 bottles of victoria bitter.



I have to qualify, I wasn't drunk but I think my body was starting to protest when my lower abdomen (not my stomach strangely) started cramping up and I was breaking out in cold sweat on the way home. Could be due to the fact that :-

• I was nursing a sore throat over the past 2 days


• I was feeling a wee bit dodgy while waiting for the "auntie's" arrival


• The excel spreadsheet which I hv been working on for the past week was making me nauseated


• I havent been sleeping well for the last few days (see point i,ii and iii) and of course, exacerbated by someone's inconsiderate callings late Wed night when I was trying to sleep.

The moment I step out of the car, I felt the upsurge and threw up at the nearest grass patch. Whatever I had for dinner (or what had tasted like what I ate for dinner) came out in the mash of liquid and whatnot. Once done, I thought that was it. Then another wave came.

While facing downwards and watching whatever i merlion-ed..I could hear 2 banglas walking past and probably sniggering in their own language. All possible imagined sexual attacks flashed through my mind, having heard of what happened near my place recently. I was so ready to kick whoever take a step too near me.

I must say..it is amazing how I managed to make it back home in a super steadily manner. And spent the next half hour cradling my head until I decided that it was definitely much better to be cradling my head SHOWERED, CLEAN AND READY TO SLEEP. So despite protests from my whirling head, I dragged myself to the bathroom floor. Much better after that, I flitted to my kitchen to down 3 tabs of vit b, knowing that was the key if I I want to survive the night and wake up sane the next morning.

And truely, no hangover effect..only the sorethroat and nauseating effect from the excel spreadsheet left for me to nurse.

Damn. I liked the 虾酱鸡 and would have preferred to have it left digesting in my stomach. I hope next time I eat 虾酱鸡 it wont bring back this episode to memory.

My steps to more self discipline

Step NO 1. Sleep Early

I havent been hitting my bed anytime before 12 midnight for the longest time. THe most recent time was in Bali (where the only past-time was sleep cos horrors!There were no tv in the rooms which we were staying in and I finished the only book I brought on the first day!).

So last night I decided that enough was enough (of course, the fact that I finished watching the DVDs I borrowed.. ) and I was all ready for bed by 11pm.

And tossed and turned for a good half hour I think. The usual dream-state sleep toward waking up didn't help. But counting back, it was the first 8 hour sleep that I had for ages. I better keep it up if I want to get rid of THE dark eye circles.

Step No 2. Start Running

After the Nike Run, I decided that I need to recuperate. For a few days.

Which extended to a full 2 weeks :p

Of course, what resulted was expected, exacerbated with the recently gourging of mooncakes.

So providence provides, I grabbed the oppotunity when an email thread came from the most unexpected person to remind us that it's about time to start getting fit, and jio-ed people to go running. Today was the first session at Macritchie. We are going to do Botanic Gardens next Tues!

It's always nice to run at nice places..and of course the fact that there are people waiting for you to run together helped cos you dont want to be known as the "pilot" lor.


To Stan Chart and lean body! yay!


Step NO 3. Money-wise

I had a thought recently, and I deicded that that will be my financial goal for the next few years.

Cant remember where I read it from, but typical Taurus got bad money sense (cos they love pretty things too much!!!). But when they decide that there is something they want to get, they will work the hell towards it.

So...

Gone are online shopping and shoes (only if I'm still thinking about the stuff the next day. Hey a girl's gonna get what a girl luvs right? :p), expensive lunches (just not so frequent..special occasion still can la).

Hmm...I realise I dont have much vices money-wise. That'll do for a start :D

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I realised I haven't been photo-blogging recently..seems like nothing interesting recently :/

“天公贴贡人”

如果天公疼傻人，那为么什么这几年走得那么忐忑....

Spring Cleaning

Was freaking bored when I finally ran out of House M.D. DVD. So finally dragged myself to my next favourite past-time - clearing up from my room.

And today my "prized items" were my uni books and notes.

I mean, ever since I graduated from uni (which was x number of years ago), I always cant bear to get rid of the books and notes. I mean I tried to sell the books but it seems that students nowadays love the smell and touch of new books than anything. Of course the fact that the uni changed the recommended book list every year didn't help. By the time I finish one year the books were deemed as redundant by the next. On the other hand, the notes were my darlings, painstakingly compiled and annotated and doodled and colored..couldn't bear to throw them away in the light of "maybe they will come in handy one day" mentality.

Yeah right. I haven't touched them since I received my convocation papers.

Anyway, I decided that today they will go.

As I was clearing the stuff out of the box, I happened to see my attachment report amongst the stash. As I was flipping through it, I was amazed at how well I wrote the paper. I was clear, concise, articulating.

I thought work is supposed to make you better, more skilled. But instead, I realised that I was becoming less sharp and possibly more dull - what has happened since I graduated? The monotony and narrow scope of work, the bitterness of office politics, and the resignation to manipulation by higher management?

I resent being so. I think come what may, it's time to rev up the engine a bit.

Missing for a week

No, my lappie hasnt gone through brain washing yet. My bro been to busy recently, esp with taking up part time studies to do his Masters.

Nonetheless, too tired during the past week to update. I need to be more discipline and start sleeping early ie not anything later than 1130pm!!!

Hope my bro has time soon to work on my laptop.