Ms P wants to play

Ms P wants to play.

Ms P is sittng
and typing
for many days
Wondering whether this life
is here to stay

Like a merry-go-round
Thoughts of play running in circles
Tied to work with pretty ribbons
Ready to let fly
Should the time doesn't comply

Should the day start with work
and end with rest
Or start with rest
and end with work

Her neighbours are typing
synchronising with the beat of the building
Like a song.
From morn till dusk.
And sometimes even from dusk till morn.

Thoughts of Work and Play
buzzing with the song
This is not life
She thought
as she cuts another ribbon and letting another play fly

Finding my way back

A quiet lunch, a step towards calmness - it had felt like you were fighting to find a way out from all the destruction of a hurricane, taking a wrong side step and suddenly you find that you accidentally stepped into the eye of the storm, finally finding that peacefulness and quietness, while seeing the rest of the world still whirling destructively around you.

It's amazing how you can sense...the presence of a person you've only met for the first time. It's like the soothing feel of placing the palm on the chest, and asking your heart to beat slower and rest better.

It's time to be more forgiving to myself. I err, but I am only human.

神与人ver2

I had initially started out on something more sombre (and kinda depressing).. but one phrase came into my mind- once you make a decision stick by it.

我只能说：我不是神,因为神,能做得到人做得到的东西.而我不能做到每个人开心,满意的决定；我只能尽我所能做能做的事

maybe one day when things are better I may post my first version

Confidence Course

It's been ages since I last climbed those wooden poles with staples. So...it's time to put myself again through those ropes, poles and steels in the name of experiential learning.









With the cicada chiming in the background, sun shining on canopies and a breath of good O2, it is good to be away from the sounds associated with the routine.

Experential Learning. Learning out of the box. Sounds damn cliche. But also damn timely.

The height of the confidence course is only as high as how you perceive. The height of the confidence course did not change during the time when your feet were still firmly on the ground or when you are looking down from the unsteady high ropes. The only thing that has changed is the point of view and the voice that was screaming in your head, convincing yourself that it's really safe to leap out from a 5 metre tower and leaving your life in the hands of

• a good steel cable
• a few carabinas
• and of course, the big guy up there that there is not even a minute chance that any weird twist of fate can happen (I watch too much disasters documentaries on Discovery..)
  a few carabinas

So is fear. Fear that is created in the crevices in your mind and telling you all the possibilities of the untowards happening.堤防，还是假象？

Darn..it takes a morning of sweating it out for the message to be apparent. 人真地会被每天繁杂的琐事而变麻木。


Leap of Faith - catch me if I fall...

春节愉快！

It seems like yesterday when christmas just came and gone. And it's time for the dong dong chiang-s again...

Been quite busy leading up to CNY, and it a super long weekend! Compared to last few years when it had always been a rushed 2 days affair..this year became an excuse for extended indulgence in vices - eating and gambling mainly :p

COming to the last day of the 4 days of good food and $$$$ (from ang paus and mjs), I am seriously comptemplating to take leave on Monday just to recuperate.God...the amount of pineapple tarts, bak kwas, love letters and all other nibble stuff that I have been downing, I am afraid to weigh myself liao.

And I'm such a sucker for nibbling..happened to sit next to the table with all the goodies when watching vcd while waiting for the rest of the kakis to turn up (being more than one and a half hours fashionably late is no longer enough. Next time I will come 3 hours after the NTM time! :<). And the goodies promptly become my lunch, or at least the amount made up for the one meal. I have officially developed a tummy from all the sinful food...argh!!!!

Detox after CNY!

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Was tellng the Leo one day that while Christmas carols as so soothing, somehow the CNY songs didn't go down as well. And I concluded that it was due to the music arrangements - while Christmas carols can sound comtemporary, CNY songs uses the dong chiangs (I donno how you classify those instruments..but I guess you know what I mean).

And afterthought, while Christmas carols promote love, peace and everything nice, CNY songs are telling you that you should wish for 发大财，接财神，and everything to do with $$$$.

Not that I mind more moolahs (who would), but somehow..quite disjointed when everybody is talking about quality of life, blah blah blah..seems crass when you only talk about $$$ and more $$$$$$$$.

But then again,bottomline is I dont mind more moolahs (mj kakis..take note!), crass or no crass..hehe..


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It seems a common peeve - CNY is a time for meeting relatives who you see only one a year, and try to make conversations.

Typical questions (which everybody has been experiencing)

1) Where are you working now?
(yeah, I have not seem you for a year. I think I can remember where you were working last time one year back, but I cant be sure, so in case I embarass myself, I better ask as if you may have moved onto greener pastures)

2) when are you getting married?
(overasked, and too many ignenious answers have been given)

3) ....
(Usually they run out of questions and it had always revolved the above 2 questions. Anything else is a bonus from the monotany of repeating the same answers)

But anyway I dont blame them. I find it challenging myself to try to talk to cousins, aunties, cousins' kids (who are only a few years younger than me. That is the case when you are part of a big family where you cousins can be grandfathers already). But well, I guess it's amazing that in Singapore when everything is based on the nuclues family, I still get to meet the bigger family fratenity even for that once a year and they remember my name at least (I made a fatal mistake of calling a cousin (who is older than me by a good ten plus years) by the wrong name throughout an half and hour conversation -.-". Almost died of embarassement when I realised)

But then, I don't think I will ever 避年. Once a year is still an experience to see other blood members of the Wan family. We are always part of something bigger, whether if we like it or not.So why not join in the fun since everybody will be caught in that kind of situation anyway.

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And of course..the usual red packets.

And I seriously hadn't had time to unpack them. Still in the condition when they were received..











Well well..there are still about 8 more days of CNY. Better go 拜太岁soon!

Built to Last

Another song that I dig currently



Built to Last by Melee

And when I you-tubed both songs and playing them back to back, I realised that the 过门 for "Built to Last" is similar to that for Kae Lan Kae :/

Anybody with "Built to Last" can send to me?