Girl from Ipanema

One of my favourite songs of all times.

Over-worked

I have been so busy at work that I literally felt like a tightly wound up spring that is ready to snap (B.O. - if you are reading this, yes, low flash point).

Had planned to camp in office for the weekend, if not for the fact that I had promised a friend much earlier (and bought tickets) to watch Emily of the Emerald Hill, and on the way there, while catching up, "how come you're so busy?" came up and I was inevitably whining (argh I hate to be like that). Impossible timeline, no concerted effort,bosses living in their own Fantasia time zone and expecting everything to magically be completed and presented to them at the snap of a finger.

"You know, sometimes I wonder how come we can't just say no." To which, my friend replied. "Perhaps it's the reminiscent of the uniform culture la...too ingrained in you already."

Makes sense. Nobody has every said no to the top honcho is my previous organisation before. In fact, I'm sure a lot of people will see it as a CSM (career suicide move) and see their CEP drop to the gutters if they every do. And the friend gave a very good example - if you are on the ground and the leader says "Move in now!", what would be the outcome if the team member turn around and look at him,"Eh..can we don't?". The whole command and control structure totally crumbles and makes everybody - including the leaders and even the team members - look like a fool.

But...I'm out of the uniform already!!! Even so, I still believe that there is still the supervisor/subordinate role which should be suitably fulfilled by both parties, albeit with a different approach than the command-and-obey rule. Got to learn to say "no" to unrealistic expectations though..

Life's a bitch sometimes...

Cut? Grow?

I was about to finish up an earlier post on the movie i watched, when I chanced upon this super fun and hilarious clip..hahahaahah~

Seriously I had more fun with all the unconventional choices..esp the chicachica-wow-wow..hahahah~

每天的小插曲

好一阵子，都把车停在离办公室附近的免费停车场。 停车场离我那栋办公楼差不多大概十分钟的路程， 可是就是要到停车场还得上一个斜坡。以前还有一些同事也把车停在那里；但久而久之，这些同事也渐渐的开始买办公楼的season parking，省下这段上下班的路程。

去年一段时间，我还有买season parking，因为天天加班到将近午夜，不买是神经病。 忙完那段时间过后，我决定省下那百多块，把那段路程当作是每天的小运动。

做了一点小适应后（先穿上平地鞋，过后到办公室才换上高根鞋），是越来越喜欢每天的这段小插曲。

早上从停车场走下来时，可以听到大自然的声音 － 叽叽的蟋蟀，树叶被风吹气的沙沙声。早上太阳还没猛照下来，暖暖的很舒服。

下班后 （要看是几点啦），早一点的话，看到跑步的下班族，踢足球的客工们。再晚一点，凉风习习，一片宁静。边走路，边把一天下来忙的透不过气的脑袋澄静下来。有时后，还会觉得好像身度国外，因为这般宁静的一角，不像岛国能找到。

同事有问过，为什么不省下走路的麻烦。我都回，还蛮喜欢的，一点小山坡，无所谓。

元宵节

最近工作越来越繁紧。差不多每夜加班，周末两天都会办公室报道。

拜二晚上，又再办公室里逗留过晚餐时间，jz 打来，说拜四去看戏，看“山楂树之恋”。好啊，我一手那着手机，另一只手继续往键盘上打。“呃，晚一点的九点四十五咧，看到来回很迟了。看早一点的吧。七点十？”

哇。那个时间我两个星期来好象都还没从办公室离开。可是晚一点的那场真的太迟了。“好吧，那拜四七点见”

所以就那么看了我平生中影像里的第一部“爱情文艺片”。

活该没学到看“唐山大地震”的经验，以后真的不能在外头看赚人落泪的戏。

看完后，和jz去吃东西。被jz 问道，“怎么样，这出戏？”

除了说看到戏里一群女孩子在台上排舞唱着对毛主席的敬爱听得我鸡皮疙瘩以外，我回她，“觉得很假”。

“觉得这种爱情不可能？”

“呃，好像是吧。”

“我倒不觉得，以前的爱情都是这样的。”

当然，那个女孩不想嫁给戏里的老三。jz 在中国生长的环境，很有可能就能酝酿出那么纯纯的爱情，所以她能对这出戏感触那么多。

可能我对原作回比较有感觉，找回那种憧憬。

所以，也祝大家元宵节快乐 :)

为什么生气

最近常被一个人惹毛。简称这个人为 A。

A的无礼， 好像只冲着几个人来，包括我在内。搞得我们一班战战兢兢的，如果能避免和a接触就尽量避免。

最近因为一些琐事，所以有邮件上的来往。每当收到A的邮件，都会被漫无理由的无礼回应呛得血压直升。第一个反应 都是： “无聊，我哪里惹了你嘛！唉，你不高兴是你自家的事，人家只想事情做好，别把自己莫名其妙哪来的一把火乱掷向人家。”

过了两三次，有一天，回家的途中，在胡思乱想的当儿，我纳闷着，我干吗那么生气。

因为他的无礼？我也没少了根寒毛。

因为有损我的颜面？我没觉得丢了脸咧。

觉得没有尊严？ 呃.....也不完全是。

终于，感觉搞清楚了，觉得是因为A把自己不知哪来的不满态度全摆出来。 这种的恶劣磁场，打到自己也反弹出自己的劣根来。

negative vibes + negative vibes = vicious cycle of negative vibes.

我才不要。

可真考耐性。

突然想起“风之谷” 的 ohmu-之所以会鲁莽攻击，也因为它被别的东西惹火了。

谁说看卡通漫画不会学到东西？

杰克与海德

杰克对海德说 － 那么丑恶的灵魂，你不应该存活在这个世界。

海德回答 － 我也是由你而生，你本来就是我。 时善时恶, 即善 即恶。你分得了何时是你，何时是我？

（杰克与海德 － Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde; don't know why but the entry just came out in Chinese. I think it was because I remembered a long time ago when I blogged on friendster “我和影子的对话”. I deregistered my friendster account and lost all the traces of my friendster blog. That was an entry that really resonates with the situation now. Dammit.)